Test of my Faith

We have hit another set back with the house. This time we aren't just back at square on we are in the hole. It's time to call it, taking a break from house hunting until spring. Man that hurts! Here we thought we were closing last last and were going to be finishing up moving this week. But no. I totally feel like I have wasted the last 4 months (not to mention the $$) and am no better off. I can't find the reason why, I can't see what it is I am supose to learn. The only thing that comes to mind is Faith. Have Faith that it will work out. We will be better off in the end. But it is so hard to want something, be told ok, and have it in arms length and then have it riped away. We will be able to stay in our rental house through the end of the year, don't know if we can stay longer yet. I guess it's the not knowing that is the hardest. Will I have to move again before we find our house? Do I have to displace my children again? I want to be able to tell them we aren't moving again, or we found the house and we will move on such and such date. I am glad we are staying here through Christmas. Last year we moved into our house one week before. That was hard. It was hard to get into the Christmas spirit. This year as soon as we are back from Thanksgiving weekend with family we are breaking out the Christmas boxes! Oh yeah DECK THE HALLS!!! I am so exicited to be able to decorate for Christmas! I Love Christmas. I love the lights, the sparkle in kids eyes, the fun of finding the perfect gift for a loved one. It makes me fill like a kid again. It's going to be great! We are going to have an awesome Christmas season. And with most of our stuff still in storage it makes chore time real fast. More time to PLAY!!!! Bring on the snow I'm ready! Ok ok I will stop enough of me spilling my brain for all it see.